It’s my party, and I’ll cry if I want to…

Remember the old song?  Well, I admit, it was out before my time, but I’ve sure heard it before.  For some reason it fascinated me as a kid and I remember wailing it out quite a bit.  I was raised around a lot of “oldies.”

I have a lot of parties…pity parties.  My parties aren’t because my “Johnny” left with “Judy,” but I’m sure that would be a great reason to have a party and cry at it.  But no, I tend to have my share of pity parties where I want to sing that song.  Oftentimes, I’ll be the only invitee to my party, but there are also times where I want to make sure a lot of different people share in my “misery.”

What’s up with that?  Do you ever have a pity party?  Or am I alone in my pettiness?  Help me out, here, friends!

I get tired.  I’m tired right now!  I’m pretty sure, after the past four weeks I’ve had that I’m probably pretty close to hitting a wall.  When I splat against that wall, I’m going to have to take a break.  It isn’t uncommon for me to run headlong for so long that I crash and burn.  So, sure as the world, I know I’m heading at warp speed for that wall. 

Add in a house that needs cleaning, kids that need momma’s attention, demands from other areas of my life, a husband who bears a lot of other peoples’ burdens, and a fairly sore knee and wrist (and isn’t that  just another story in and of itself). and you have one Kasey who is pretty much destined to throwing a party for herself.  Yes, ma’am (or sir)…engraved invitations for Kasey’s pity party should arrive in a mail box near you soon.

But in the larger scope of things, aren’t those “problems” small compared to others in the world?  I heard briefly on the news about the guy who held some people hostage in the Discovery Channel building in Maryland today.  He had problems.  And the brief snippet I heard about the story talked about how there were children in a daycare in that building and how they managed to get those kids out and to a nearby McDonalds.   As a momma, that caught my attention and I didn’t even have to stop to think about how I would have felt if I’d known my babies were in harm’s way like that even for a few minutes.  Those mommas had problems.

I’m not saying that we don’t have awful, legitimate problems from time to time.  We do!  But amazingly, those are the ones we tend to weather.  Or at least I do.  It’s those smaller things that weigh me down and have a tendency to suck the life out of me.  They wear me down and beat me down and make me feel sorry for myself.

I think sometimes we ought to consider who or what is getting us down and wearing us out the most.  Are they things that are causing us to have pity parties and waste time fretting over things we shouldn’t be fretting over?  If so, let’s call off the parties!  Instead of letting ourselves have a good wallow, let’s straighten our spines and “walk it off,” as my dad has always advised (even when broken bones are involved, but, as I often say, that’s yet another story!).  Let’s tear up the invitations, take down the streamers, and call off the parties.  For once, we may feel better without them.

And, just for grins and giggles, here’s a clip of the song.  Don’t forget, Judy gets her comeuppance later in “It’s Judy’s Turn to Cry.”   ;-)

Oh, and one final word…GO REDS! No pity party about my Redlegs. They are 8 games over St. Louis right now! Zippity do dah!

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Trash Talkin’

Well, my beloved Cincinnati Reds blew it this week.  They were leading the National League Central Division.  They were two games ahead of those detestable St. Louis Cardinals (disclaimer — my husband told me to not call them “those detestable St. Louis Cardinals” as he said they may actually have a few fans out there somewhere, maybe even reading this.  Surely not?  LOL!!!).  It was all set up to be the week the Reds blew open their lead and took a commanding lead, earned some respect from all of Major League Baseball and set themselves up for a glorious run at the pennant…all while on their home turf at Great American Ball Park in Cincinnati.

Sometimes what should happen doesn’t.

It all started on Monday when the Reds second baseman Brandon Phillips made some rather pointed comments about the Cardinals to a retired sports writer.  The writer quoted him in his widely-read blog (you know, sort of like this one!  :) ).  Let’s just say what Brandon said, for the most part, I can’t repeat here.  But it made for some crazy publicity.  The cities of Cincinnati and St. Louis lit up with all the buzz.  The next day, in the first inning when Phillips came up to bat for the first time, a good old-fashioned base-brawl ensued.  Okay.  I confess.  I do love a good basebrawl.

However, in this case, for whatever reason, it took the wind right out of the Reds’ sails and they lost 3 straight games to the Cardinals, which knocked them out of first place and slid St. Louis (grrrrr) into first place.  Not exactly the way my sports week (or, well, the Reds either) was supposed to go.

Okay, Kasey, you might say.   This isn’t a sports blog. 

You’re right, I say.  But I do have a point.  Sometimes it just takes a while to get there.

Have you ever heard any “trash talkin’” at your church?  At any church?  Maybe the language wasn’t quite so colorful as Brandon Phillips (or maybe it was!), but it was trash talkin’ nonetheless.   Have you ever said anything you wouldn’t say straight to someone’s face?  Or, in a more passive move, perhaps you haven’t actually said anything, but you know that you were particpating in it by listening as others did it?

In the workplace, and apparently now in baseball (!), there is a pretty low tolerance for such behavior.  So, why would it be okay in God’s church?   What good could possibly come of it?

As ministers’ wives, or women in general, we are faced daily with the challenge of setting the example to our friends, families and our church families.  Did we ask for that role?  Sometimes yes, and sometimes no, but nonetheless, I can assure you that someone somewhere  is looking up to you, is looking to follow your lead.

I fail daily.   Let me repeat – I fail daily.  I tend to be more like Brandon Phillips when he’s expressing his opinion of the St. Louis Cardinals than the person I ought to be, than the person God  wants me to be.   But I shouldn’t give up.  Like the famous line from the baseball movie, “There’s no cryin’ in baseball!”, there may be crying if we don’t behave like we should.

In all the finger-pointing around Cincinnati as to what caused the Reds to choke this week and lose those games after all the hubbub surrounding the comments and the brawl, it has been suggested that perhaps if the blogger hadn’t repeated what Brandon had said, none of this would have ever happened.  Is that the case?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  But I can tell you for sure that there have been plenty of times that some particular “stuff” would have died off if I’d kept my mouth closed.

*Sigh*  I just have to keep on praying.

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Shocking People and Getting Blessed

Bet that made you do a double-take, huh?

In any case, it’s happened to me twice lately.  Well, actually, I’m sure I shock people on a regular basis, unfortunately, but that’s only half the story.

Our church does a lot of local missions in our small town.  I admit, I’m proud of our outreach.  We honestly try to help reach people by helping meet a lot of basic needs in their lives.  Among many, one new ministry is a diaper giveaway ministry and another is participating in our local school system’s school supply giveaway to those who need help at the start of school.

One of my “volunteer” roles lately has been to buy the diapers we were going to give away and just this week, to buy the notebooks for the school supply “gala.”  These buying sprees have been tagged on to the end of very long and, for various reasons, hair pulling type days. 

So, in I march to a Sam’s Club or Walmart to buy what the church needs to supply these giveaway days.  Have you ever bought $500 worth of diapers?  Well, let me re-phrase (since many of us are mothers, I’m betting we’ve bought lots more than $500 worth of diapers).  Have you ever bought $500 worth of diapers at one time?  Let me just say, it’s a haul.  They will pretty much fill up the back seats and rear hatch part of a Ford Edge, in case you were curious. 

Since most humans are curious by nature (dare I say, nosy?), I was approached multiple  times while struggling mightily through Sam’s and later at the checkout and even later as I lugged them through the parking lot.  People would chuckle or stare, and in their “everyone’s a comedian” ways say something along the lines of, “jeez, hon, you must have a lot of kids! hahaha” or “um, do you work for a daycare?”

I’ll admit, the first time someone asked, the less-than-pleasant version of Kasey Beckham reared her ugly head and tried to snark her way out.  But somehow (three guesses how?) I was able to check myself and reply pleasantly, “Nope!” *insert smiles here*  “I’m buying these on behalf of our church so we can give them away to some folks in need of them.”

Jaws would drop and eyes would grow large.  I had nothing but complimentary replies.  People were amazed that a church would buy all those diapers just to give away. 

What a wonderful witness for God’s church!

Same thing happened this week with some notebooks.  I was struggling to load, unload, load, unload and load again 200 3-subject notebooks.

“You a teacher, hon?”

“Nope,” I replied.  (This time I knew what to say.)  “Just buying these for our church to give away to kids who need them in our community.”

Christians don’t always have the best reputation, unfortunately.  The world villanizes us on a regular basis.  But I found it to be super fun to just shock ‘em.  Yeah, we do good things sometimes.  We do good things a lot  of times.  We just don’t always toot our own horns about it.

What awesome thing has your church done lately?  Sometimes we get caught up in the drama of all the things in our churches that aren’t so perfect and forget that there are good people doing good things for the glory of the Lord and that alone all the time.  It’s not always that we have financial resources to do things…sometimes we give of our time, our talents, our genuine caring for the people in our communities.

What is it that you and your church can do or already do in order to shock people and get blessed?

In the meantime, here’s my “thank you” to all of you who give so much every week…

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What’s Your Rainbow?

The kids and I got caught in a downpour this evening while we were picking tomatoes and green beans from the garden.  (Chris watched us get drenched from the barn doorway.  Apparently that was funny.)  It was really kind of odd…I thought we were going to miss the rain.  For a long while, I could literally hear the downpour on our neighbor’s barn roofs, then I could hear it move to the hill in front of the house as it pounded the leaves of the trees.  It was just wrapping around us, yet not raining on us at all. 

Then…WHAMMO.  The rain was on us, pounding us, drenching us — literally — to the skin.  I eventually got the kids out of the mud of the garden and headed down to the garage to wait it out.  The kids ran around and played in it.  I enjoyed watching them run around screaming in the warm summer rain, splashing in the downspouts, jumping in the fresh puddles.  (Yeah, this all equaled a big ole’ mess for momma to clean up later, but it was worth it watching them have a ball in that rain.)

It wasn’t long till the rain passed on by and we were able to head back to finish our picking.  Sure enough, there was a beautiful rainbow in the sky.  We all looked at it and I wondered in passing if I could find my pot of gold.

As I’d stood in the garage watching the kids enjoy the rain, I couldn’t help but pause and think about the folks in Pike County and Carter County and others who had lost everything they owned on earth in flooding last week.  The rain that my kids were enjoying had been devastating to hundreds if not thousands of our friends, families and neighbors just last week.  Property was lost to the tune of millions of dollars, and even one life was lost in Carter County.

But there was that rainbow, hanging in the sky like a colorful ribbon.  God promised he wouldn’t destroy the entire earth with water again after Noah’s flood.  He also promised time and time again in the Bible to take care of us.

As wives of men in ministry, we’ve seen our share of destruction and devastation in others’ lives and in our own.  We deal with the pain and frustration and defeats our husbands bear, we bear the pain of our congregations, and we acutely feel our own losses.  So, I ask you, what is your rainbow?  What is your favorite verse that you hold on to as God’s promise to you that He will take care of you?

As I leave this post, I’ll share with you a little video I found of some of Carter County’s flood losses.  Keep these folks and all  the recent flood victims in your prayers.

Scenes from July 2010 Carter County flood

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Relax…it’s Summertime

It is amazing the amount of stress that can accumulate over the course of a normal week, but when you throw in illness, difficult scheduling, worry, lack of sleep, over-commitment (need I go on?), it’s a wonder our bodies don’t simply break down from the weight of it all. 

I won’t even go into all the reasons I’m stressed on any given day.  Some times there are good reasons, but many times I’ve put myself in some sort of impossible situation that causes my stress overload.  I won’t even talk about the value of de-stressing our lives (maybe that’s another post?) because in general, we seem to dump it on ourselves at any given time. 

I just thought I’d share with you that I relaxed yesterday.  Amazing, isn’t it?  For about two hours yesterday, I relaxed.  My husband and I took the kids and went to Carter Caves State Park, which isn’t too awfully far from where we live.  It’s also not too far from where I was raised, and I have a lot of great memories from there as a kid.  I have a bad habit of wanting my kids to have a lot of the same (good) experiences I did as a kid.  (Once again, that’s another post!) 

If you’ve ever been to Carter Caves, you know that even when it’s a million degrees outside, it’s not unbearable in that park.  And the Caveland Branch creek?  Always so cold and brisk.  So, I threw swimsuits on the kids and packed their water shoes and off we went after Chris got home from the church’s new diaper give-away ministry. 

The kids were thrilled with walking in and wading in the creek.  So was I.  Since I had been to the park as a kid, I knew where to go to get away from the other park-goers and move off in our own “private” area.  We were surrounded by shady woods, cool rocks, cold water and the sounds of nature all around us.  Birds calling, water running over the rocks, the kids’ unending questions about everything they saw…all soothing sounds to my generally overstimulated self. 

I’m a pretty high-octane kind of girl.  I tend to go at full speed most days, always in a hurry, always jam-packing as much as I can into every minute.  And I like that!  But every once in a while, I need to chill out.  So, for two hours yesterday, I didn’t think about anything but where to step in that creek so I didn’t take another tumble (like I had earlier, and that is another story). 

Where do you go to relax?   Do you have a special place or time you can just chill out (literally or figuratively)?    Listen, it’s important!  I highly recommend taking a stroll in a cold creek with two inquisitive kids who are amazed that God made that crawdaddy just to live in that little creek in Carter County. 

Heading for the playground at Carter Caves...meet Grayson Luke and Sarah Elizabeth

 

Doesn't that water look nice? (and isn't she a cutie?)

 

 

Come on in, ya'll. The water's nice...

 

Chris, Grayson and Sarah exploring the creek.

 

Heavenly sunlight on my relaxing day.

 

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My first post

Kasey Beckham

Kasey Beckham: pastor's wife, pastor's kid, mom, non-profit executive, Reds fan

There are a lot of things rattling around in my head. I’m not sure how relevant too many of those things are to the world. I’m one of those people who know a little bit about a lot of things, but that’s just generally enough to make me dangerous. In light of that, I’m trying to learn to keep my mouth shut more often.

How’s that going for you, you might ask? Hmmm. Not so great. I find that I’m fairly opinionated. Let me give you some examples:

I love baseball. I am a fan of the Cincinnati Reds (and voted 7 million times for their first baseman Joey Votto to make the All-Star team). I love college basketball. I am a University of Kentucky fan. I drive Ford vehicles. I’m a pretty laid-back momma and think that’s a pretty good way to go. I just don’t understand why everyone doesn’t love summer and summertime activities. You’ll find that I am not a fan of winter at all.

See what I mean? I have some very definite opinions. And sometimes, in churches, having a very definite opinion and not tempering your tongue a bit can cause some very stressful and uncomfortable situations.

I’m not talking about doctrinal issues or Biblical matters. I’m talking about everyday kind of church stuff — the kinds of things that ultimately are not worth hurting others about.

I’m writing about this because I’m firmly pointing a finger in my direction. As well as being opinionated, I am also fairly interested in getting my own way (just ask my husband…and parents…and friends…and co-workers…). I find that it’s hard to separate the two. As I reflect on my own issues, I think it may be safe to assert that a few other folks may have the same thing going on. When we get the bit in our teeth about something we want, it’s nearly impossible to take a step away and bring ourselves back down to a rationale, or even harder, Godly, perspective.

So, how’s that whole keeping your mouth shut thing going for you, you still ask? Not the best, I say. But I’m working on it! I’m working on it because I think that sometimes my opinion isn’t a hill worth dying on when it means relationships with people God loves.

Stay tuned.

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